Abandoned

I am in the dark
light will flood my home
when Pa arrives from work
dreamy, drunk and sullen.

He spreads my bed;
fills my water bottle
and when I cuddle
under his arm
he dabs my head .

His hand quivers now
I could feel his pulse
when i look up to him
a tear would drop on
my nose pricking
my heart!.

He bangs my bed
and rushes towards
Ma 's pictures
staring at it for hours.
I was picked up by Ma
when i was playing
with my friends
I don't remember my
biological mother.

when i sniffed Ma's
fingers i knew
she was the one.
seeing i am a healthy
and beautiful Pa and Ma took
me to their home.

It was fun playing with Ma
she would keep me
between her breasts
I would sniff her all over
and she would laugh
like a child.

When Ma goes to study
Pa keeps me in the sofa
I litter and pee making
him angry
I peep to see Ma looking
through the Internet
her sweet chides
make Pa a little boy.

In the dead of the night
when Pa and Ma make
funny noise and their
bodies turn into one
I hide behind the bed sheet
and when they are drenched in sweat
I roam over tickling them.

Ma now don't look at me!
Out of sympathy she sometimes
tries to play with me
but her beautiful eyes
are filled with tears
her hands have lost its care.
She now doesn’t come to see
me over the internet.
Pa’s attempt to show
me always ends up
with a fight.


I don't know where i
will end up
my little friend who visits
from across the street
speak of the dangers.
When left alone and abandoned
a bunny will be a feast for
cats and dogs
or be trashed under a racing cab.

But I prefer death in an instant
than to see
Pa ,Ma and I
abandoned !